He Holds It All Together

This post will be short but it is awesome.  Our children's church sponsored a local DHS house and while wrapping the gifts we noticed that some of the kids didn't get much. John and I didn't have the money to buy anything so I went home and looked through my kids presents. I know that sounds weird but they had a lot of presents. I found a gift for the one year old boy out of Ainsley's presents.  When we went to the DHS house we got to watch the kids open their gifts. The one year old looked so sad but when he opened that present he lit up. It was such an awesome feeling.  A few days later on Christmas Eve we went to Wichita Falls to open presents with my family. My sister got Ainsley the same present we gave away to that one year old boy. I couldn't believe it. Normally, we tell each other what we are getting the kids but this year we didn't. I was in awe of what the Lord had done. This was a lesson that even the smallest things we do to help others coun...

I have never taken the time to write down what happened the day Toby was born. I think it is important to publish it somewhere so I can refer back to it later when I need to tell his future girlfriends or wife. Haha. Just kidding. My original due date was December 31, 2008. I had been struggling with high blood pressure my entire pregnancy and had been hospitalized three separate times because my doctor thought I was developing pre-eclampsia. Not fun. I felt so bad for John. I was on bed rest for the last 3 months of the pregnancy and he took off work to take care of me. (Amazing man!!) On top of all that I was going to the doctor once a week and having non stress tests done at the hospital twice a week. All of these appointments were in Edmond (20 or so                    miles from our house) so it took up a lot of our time, but it was about Toby. We wanted him to be ok. My doctor decided at 38 weeks that I was far enough al...

So in order to explain one of the best gifts I have been given I need to tell the back story. It's not necessary to understand, but what is the point of a blog if I don't reveal something personal? Haha. I know that blogs don't have to be personal, but mine is so here it is... I have believed in God and that Jesus is our savior for as long as I can remember. I have had very few moments in my life that I have doubted His existence. (I will be sure to blog about that later. What good is a testimony if I don't share it??) BUT the one thing I have never been able to grasp is His love for us. I can clearly see that He loves other people. I have always been able to see that. But me? Who am I to God that He would love me? I haven't written any books, or songs, I haven't reached millions of people with my testimony. I've hardly even told it. I'm not even really sure what my testimony is. My point is, I haven't done much to glorify God. What reason does H...