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I Can Only Imagine

I didn't plan to post twice in one day, but I went outside at 2:45 this morning and that changed. I don't know what prompted me to go outside but I am so glad I did. I looked up and suddenly felt like I was on the Truman Show. hahaha. I know that doesn't seem like a good thing but it was in that moment that I realized how much God loves us. Yes, I am 22 and just now coming to that realization but I am so grateful for that moment. (the low clouds were what made it feel dome like by the way)

Anyway, the sky was beautiful and it made me think. God loves us so much that he created this amazing world knowing we would destroy it AND even knowing that he sent his son to die to save us from the horrible death we all deserve so that we didn't have to endure it. John 3:16 says the same thing but it is so much different when you come to that realization on your own. Once I realized that this it made me it that if God made earth so beautiful knowing that we would destroy it no wonder why Heaven is beyond our human understanding. We can comprehend earthly beauty yet we are constantly destroying everything beautiful about it; so we cannot possibly know what Heaven is like. My guess is that if we knew we would find some way to destroy that too. When I told John all this he started singing "I Can Only Imagine" and while I laughed at the time I realized that he was exactly right.

I guess I had to write this at 3:30 in the morning because it all finally makes sense to me. I can be excited about Heaven now. I can endure the miserable trials here on earth because I get it now. (at least as much as my earthly self can understand).

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By your side

I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

[Chorus:]
Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine

[Chorus]

I can only imagine [x2]

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you

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